Am I Doing the Right Thing?

I know I skipped blogging yesterday, but I really didn’t have anything new to write.  I’m utterly and totally anxious about starting running again, or really even any sort of exercise program, but that’s nothing new.  I spent 5 hours walking around in stores on Thursday in my Skora’s, and my feet were really tender by the time I got home.  So you understand my anxiety, right?  What if I start trying to walk 45 minutes, and my foot balloons?  What if?  What if?  What if?

Okay, whining session over.  So I’m trying to figure out what to do for a dynamic warm-up session?  Follow the Bikini Beach Mommy plans?  The Women’s Health high intensity training programs?  Just basic calisthenics?  And where do I do them?  The “gym” where I work closes at the time that I get off of work.  Should I do them in the parking lot?  ARG!  Questions questions questions.  I know it will all come together, but I can’t help but be a little worried about changing myself.

I’ve also let myself slide on my diet, this past week.  I have been on a “staycation,” and I had a tooth pulled.  So why not let myself slide as far as the diet goes, right?  When I went to the grocery for “just a couple of items,” yesterday, I went ahead & bought most of what I need to get back on plan.  Lean protein, salad fixings, beets (because I’m craving them), other vegetables, and an attitude adjustment.  The attitude adjustment wasn’t purchased, just a part of the whole.  🙂

So my little guy is snoozing away, having a mid-morning nap, while I blog to the world about changing my diet and exercise lifestyle, and I can’t help but wonder how this will change our relationship.  Will it get better because I feel better?  Or will he resent me because I’m spending a little less time with him?  Because I’m not here to put him to bed 3 or more times a week?

Blogging as therapy…right?

I can do this, right?

I can do this, right?



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